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I was set for the day. Confident I wouldn't be doing office work because I was scheduled to work in another unit. But there were only 2 patients in that ward so I was called back to help with office work. I totally underestimated quality control people. I have only done it for 2 days and here I am, all stressed out. Imagine having it as a full-time job.. @@ Well, honestly, I am not planning to be a bedside nurse forever. I am considering shifting to a career still medically inclined but not as bedside anymore. I was actually thinking of shifting to quality work or maybe clinical instructor.. but, the 2 days I just had, left me mentally drained. I guess it was an untimely exposure to the workload since it's the end of 3rd quarter and reports/survey are being finalized.

Still, today was an odd day.

I saw different sides of our director, nurse managers and the supervisors.

What was really odd?


I had lunch with the big bosses.

Glad I didn't choke.

Go away unnecessary fats

In my weight loss journey, the humps and bumps are inevitable. Though I noticed that my setbacks are greater than my success. I came to Saudi Arabia at 54 kg, 3 months later, I gained 3 kilos and then some. After a couple of months, I got to 63 kg. Something I am not proud of. That day was my wakeup call. I started exercising, eating less, eating better. And then, I lose 2 kgs. 61 kg now and I can't seem to lose anymore. It's 60 kg, then 61, then 59 then bounce back to 51. It's already a struglle to begin with, what now with all these figures?

Now, I am at 61 kg. To get to normal BMI, I need to lose 7 kgs.

I know how to do it, I just need a motivation..

And I realized I am going home a month from now..

SO I CANNOT GO HOME LOOKING LIKE I ATE ALL THE CAMELS IN THE KINGDOM.

I will make ^^^^^^^^ my mantra!

Reminder to myself:

Fats, you will die.


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Sheerio

Guess who has been watching Ed Sheeran for like 4 hours straight now?? Guilty. 

I didn't understand why my sister is such a huge fan until recently, when I started to really listen to him. 

He is magic. 

This day, I am officially a Sheerio.

NEVER EVER AGAIN

Everyone gets to have their dumbest moment ever and I just had mine yesterday. That was just completely embarassing and I don't know how to move forward. I have been thinking about it every waking second of my life. I couldn't find strength to forgive myself for what happened yesterday. Seriously, guys, I couldn't even say it here. That was how uncomfortable and mortifying yesterday's dumbest event was. O____O I can't even..

You know that feeling of wanting to just get lost for a while? Just eveaporate?

YEAH.

Out of It

I am embarrassed to be caught looking, no, the right word is staring. There, I said it. But it feels worse now that it's out there. @@ Yesterday's shift felt tense, weird and unorganized. I am glad I have this day off. Give me a chance to clear myself and hopefully learn to lower my gaze.

Ya Rabb, forgive me.

How I Met Your Mother Farewell

A moment of silence please for my favorite show of all time T___T 

*sigh* 

Barney, Ted, Robin, Marshall and Lily.. the entire MacLaren's gang will be airing it's final episode tonight and I can't stop feeling sad.

I guess all good things really come to an end..

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#100happydays

Assalamualaikum :)

Currently on day 5 of doing this challenge. And all I can say is that it's actually helping me to find my little bubble of happiness every single day in spite of all the new things happening around me. Being a nurse, it can get really stressful at work (my admission yesterday was so chaotic) but the challenge has given me a reason to be more optimistic.

Try it, guys! It does make that smile turn into a frown♥