Are you ready?

I think one of the things friends have asked me a lot about these past few months is my relationship status. And my answer is always.. "wala eh." I don't actually mind, most of the time. I think being single is very liberating and well, sets me apart from a lot of adults my age. Honestly, though, I don't think I am ready to be un-single. To be associated with someone else. To be in a relationship.

"Bakit di ka pa ready?" 

One close guy friend of mine just asked me earlier. I told him because I have a lot of things planned for myself and in all those plans, being in a harmonious marriage, sits last. I want to give back to my parents. I have dreams for them. At this point in time, I also feel like neither my family nor myself are ready for me to settle down.

All that said, maybe this is His way of telling me that I have to wait for His plans for me. Maybe I am not ready because I really shouldn't be anything but single now. I trust Him. Marriage is a blessing from Him and so, I wait.

Assalamualaikum =)

Something Personal

I have the tendency to make excuses for other people. I guess that's my way of coping with an undesirable situation, turn it to something understandable. Bearable.

For the past few years, I have been trying my best to understand, came up with excuses after excuses for a close relative. I got none now. I feel like maybe she's just intentionally insensitive. Top it with me being very sensitive, so with every remark she makes, it stings. It could also be that she thinks I am still a teenager with all the rage and hormones that she has deduced me to being just that (see?, another excuse).

Well, it is true that I cannot please everybody, no one can. But I also think that sometimes people have decided not to give a second chance. 

And that is beyond unfair.

May Allah SWT make it easy for me to understand. May He help me rid of anger over this matter. Ameen.

Assalamualaikum.

Nth

Day 12.

May peace reign in our hearts, in our relationship with others and in the entire world.

Assalamualaikum, Zamboanga.

Eid Mubarak!

Assalamualaikum!

Better late than never..

Eid'l fitr al-mubarak my brothers and sisters!

My facebook friends, twitter and IG followers know that this was a truly memorable Ramadhan for me. :') I intend to keep the good habits I started and fully rid off the bad ones I avoided during the blessed month (no more nail biting, no more "emotional baggage,".. etc.). May all our duaa's, prayers and repentance be accepted by Allah azza wa jal. May we remain steadfast in our prayers. May we be granted good health to live through Ramadhan next year in shaa Allah. May we all strive to be better Muslims for Allah SWT's sake. Ameen.

I love you for the sake of Allah SWT.

:)

Blabbers and wonders

Assalamualikum.

It has been over a month since my last update. I feel like I don't know how to blog anymore. Not like I am an expert or anything.. just.. I know you get what I mean. Anywootsiedoops, I have been MIA for such a looooong time because I had "important" "adult-ish" "mature-ish" stuff to take care of (and still taking care of at the moment). And as much as I am itching to share the details, I would rather keep it to myself and my family for now (woah, I feel like I am getting married or something, and it's not that, not yet). In shaa Allah when everything's set.. I actually drafted a couple of posts for when the time comes I am ready to talk about it. YES, I AM A VERY EXCITED PERSON. I haven't been in a couple of months so "excited" is an understatement. Ya Allah, I am grateful for Your infinite love. <3 If you have been following me on Twitter, you will notice all the happy tweets blended in with the nervous tweets. It has been a  roller coaster of emotions but I am humbled by His generosity.

What has happened the past few weeks?

• I was in Manila, with my sister and cousins. We were all looking for a job. :) We're back for a few weeks to follow up all credentials and fly back to Manila to accomplish another set of requirements. In shaa Allah everything will run smoothly. 
• Inah undergone surgery because of abnormal uterine bleeding. We stayed in the hospital overnight, discharged the next morning and alhamdulillah, she looks and feels better. Immensely grateful. :')
• My niece, born 4 months early, passed away. Too precious for the world, I say. Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un.. May Allah grant her Jannah and may the one's she left behind remain strong, patient and faithful despite this trying time. Ameen.

It's a cuddle weather Saturday today. Have a good one! Peace and love.