Gloomy day

Assalamualaikum. :)

It's drizzling while I am writing this.. crazy, bipolar weather lately. -__- I hope you're all safe and dry.

Have you been through feeling like you wanna say something but afraid to say so much? Well, I am in that mood lately and it's so frustrating! If I say a lot, it could hurt someone and something. If I don't say anything, it gets confusing and strange. This has been going on for way too long, but how to stop? Ugh. Feelings and emotions are stuff I seem to have difficulty dealing with. Meh. SMH.

Anyway.. let's move that stuff aside. I'll deal with it when I have to REALLY deal with it. For now, I'll pretend I don't care. Goodluck with that. :|

So I have been getting pretty excited with makeup lately. I am enjoying makeup tutorials (woot, woot!)--Michelle Phan, is one awesome lady! And another beauty guru I visit a lot is TheMakeupChair. She has informative videos for beginners like me! I have no clue about makeup but they make it easy and fun! But for now I am happy with a BB cream, loose powder, lip balm and gloss. I just enjoooooy their videos :D

And another YouTuber I've been fangirling is MacBarbie07! For those of you who know her, ain't she awesome? Her videos make me forget my problems, cheers me up all the time! For those of you who haven't heard of her, go check her videos. It's all rainbows, unicorns, cotton candy, smiles, love and all things sparkly and nice!


See what I'm talking about? JOY. HAPPY. FUN. Yeah that's Bethers! :)

I also want to share you this site. You can find tons of inspirational photos and quotes.. I spend a lot of time there. Pick me up kind of site.. Some photos I like below, probably the things I'm afraid to say..

And things I find pretty..

And lookie, DIY!

Til next update. Peace and tons of love <3

Eid Mubarak!

Assalamualaikum!

Better late than never..

Eid'l fitr al-mubarak my brothers and sisters!

My facebook friends, twitter and IG followers know that this was a truly memorable Ramadhan for me. :') I intend to keep the good habits I started and fully rid off the bad ones I avoided during the blessed month (no more nail biting, no more "emotional baggage,".. etc.). May all our duaa's, prayers and repentance be accepted by Allah azza wa jal. May we remain steadfast in our prayers. May we be granted good health to live through Ramadhan next year in shaa Allah. May we all strive to be better Muslims for Allah SWT's sake. Ameen.

I love you for the sake of Allah SWT.

:)

Twenty three

Assalamualaikum~

Guess who turned 23 last 30th of June? Who else but me! I thank Allah for the wonderful blessings and love He unconditionally showered upon me for 23 years. I pray that I become stronger in faith, that I prove worthy of His love and entry in Jannah; I pray good health for myself and for my loved ones; I pray for love that will last 'til Jannah in shaa Allah. I feel like I am asking for too much here but in all honesty, I will be grateful for whatever He gives. :)

What I did that day? It was a Sunday and we have that day to get groceries. I bought ice cream for everyone. Dinner was scrumptous as always. It was like any other day because I have learned not to celebrate it the way I used to. Not that I celebrated it with a large crowd and singing and booze, astaghfirullah, that's haram. We used to have cake and tons of food. This time though, it didn't matter if there's something special in store for me. I would admit though that it felt nice that my friends remembered I was turning a year older (wiser, too, perhaps?).

Blabbers and wonders

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It has been over a month since my last update. I feel like I don't know how to blog anymore. Not like I am an expert or anything.. just.. I know you get what I mean. Anywootsiedoops, I have been MIA for such a looooong time because I had "important" "adult-ish" "mature-ish" stuff to take care of (and still taking care of at the moment). And as much as I am itching to share the details, I would rather keep it to myself and my family for now (woah, I feel like I am getting married or something, and it's not that, not yet). In shaa Allah when everything's set.. I actually drafted a couple of posts for when the time comes I am ready to talk about it. YES, I AM A VERY EXCITED PERSON. I haven't been in a couple of months so "excited" is an understatement. Ya Allah, I am grateful for Your infinite love. <3 If you have been following me on Twitter, you will notice all the happy tweets blended in with the nervous tweets. It has been a  roller coaster of emotions but I am humbled by His generosity.

What has happened the past few weeks?

• I was in Manila, with my sister and cousins. We were all looking for a job. :) We're back for a few weeks to follow up all credentials and fly back to Manila to accomplish another set of requirements. In shaa Allah everything will run smoothly. 
• Inah undergone surgery because of abnormal uterine bleeding. We stayed in the hospital overnight, discharged the next morning and alhamdulillah, she looks and feels better. Immensely grateful. :')
• My niece, born 4 months early, passed away. Too precious for the world, I say. Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un.. May Allah grant her Jannah and may the one's she left behind remain strong, patient and faithful despite this trying time. Ameen.

It's a cuddle weather Saturday today. Have a good one! Peace and love.

Whipple!

Writing a blogpost to release tension. *winks* I've been reading about Whipple's procedure for almost an entire day now. There's still more to read. This happens when I overthink and all the if's comes rushing to my head. I have handled a patient post-whipple surgery and I remember everything I did was routine nursing care. But tomorrow will be different because I will be receiving him a couple hours post-surgery. Plus, it will be my first time to be a private nurse. SO YES I AM SCARED!

May Allah azza wa jal relieve me of the nervousness I feel, give me wisdom at all times and grant me presence of mind as I take care of my patient tomorrow. 

Ameen.

 Assalamualaikum! :)

The Hills

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I am feeling pretty sad today. I ranted about it earlier on Twitter.. I really wished I came home earlier. *sadface* But.. on a lighter, totally unrelated note, I am pretty excited about us (my sister, cousin and I) temporarily staying in Manila. Why, you ask? When I was around 15 (I'm not sure about this, I am bad at remembering personal timeline), I was obsessed with the idea of living alone, meaning no adults around. I even wanted to stay in a dormitory close to my uni even though I was already staying with my grandmom. Then I never missed an episode of, wait for it...

 "The Hills." Yep, I wanted to be Lauren Conrad working as an intern in a certain fashion magazine. There. I said it. 

So, we're leaving soon and we are getting all our documents ready. The reason we're moving is because we are on a job hunt. We're nurses and, unfortunately, Philippines doesn't have that much of an opportunity for us. I have a year worth of bedside experience in a special area in a tertiary hospital and I thought I'd get a chance of maybe getting a job here. Wrong. If I want a job, I have to be a volunteer again, get evaluated and go thru all these seemingly unfair process. That's why, we're gonna try our luck and apply abroad. In shaa Allah.

Dua's please? :))

TV talk

Assalamualaikum!

Okay. Another off set. My aunt, my Inah's sister, was hospitalized for two days. And I stayed with her  the entire time from admission until discharge, only going home to take a bath. It was the most uncomfortable 2 days ever. But I am glad to be of service to my very loving, humble and selfless Aunt. All is well now, alhamdulillah. She is now recovering from bronchial asthma and hypertension. May Allah make it easy for her during her recovery and keep her healthy. May Allah keep all of us away from harm. Ameen. :)

As for the title, well, these days they (my relatives) have been talking a lot about the TV we have downstairs that now serves just as a piece of decoration. It's broken and someone tried to fix it but didn't really manage to do the job. So we're getting a new TV, soon! I am excited 'cos I think out of everyone here, I probably watch a whole lot of TV. Yikes.

Anyway, just a quick hello to bloggie.

Talk to you soon!