NEVER EVER AGAIN

Everyone gets to have their dumbest moment ever and I just had mine yesterday. That was just completely embarassing and I don't know how to move forward. I have been thinking about it every waking second of my life. I couldn't find strength to forgive myself for what happened yesterday. Seriously, guys, I couldn't even say it here. That was how uncomfortable and mortifying yesterday's dumbest event was. O____O I can't even..

You know that feeling of wanting to just get lost for a while? Just eveaporate?

YEAH.

Out of It

I am embarrassed to be caught looking, no, the right word is staring. There, I said it. But it feels worse now that it's out there. @@ Yesterday's shift felt tense, weird and unorganized. I am glad I have this day off. Give me a chance to clear myself and hopefully learn to lower my gaze.

Ya Rabb, forgive me.

How I Met Your Mother Farewell

A moment of silence please for my favorite show of all time T___T 

*sigh* 

Barney, Ted, Robin, Marshall and Lily.. the entire MacLaren's gang will be airing it's final episode tonight and I can't stop feeling sad.

I guess all good things really come to an end..

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#100happydays

Assalamualaikum :)

Currently on day 5 of doing this challenge. And all I can say is that it's actually helping me to find my little bubble of happiness every single day in spite of all the new things happening around me. Being a nurse, it can get really stressful at work (my admission yesterday was so chaotic) but the challenge has given me a reason to be more optimistic.

Try it, guys! It does make that smile turn into a frown♥

OFW Sheidydiaries: Noob

Assalamualaikum!

I am now far from my hometown, in a vast modernized desert. The flight went easy and smooth, alhamdulillah. I've been here for 5 days now and honestly, still in a bit of a culture shock. But in shaa Allah, I will be able to adjust well. =) 

I am currently staying with 6 other nurse in one huge flat but since my cousin is also here, I wish our request to become roomies will be granted. ;)

Everything feels strange. Being in a foreign land indeed is a challenge. But this is Saudi Arabia. For a Muslim like me, this is a huge  privilege. I am indeed looking forward to umrah and hajj opportunities, in shaa Allah. For now though, please keep me in your prayers. My batchmates and I are under a 3-month probationary period so I will be needing your duuas to be able to face every challenge with confidence, wisdom, wit and presence of mind.

May Allah grant all our halal desires. Ameen.

That's gonna be it for now. More later in shaa Allah.

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Been MIA for almost a month because.. well, maybe in another post. ;)

But just a really quick one.

I am gonna keep blogging here. 
I have decided I will never leave this blog. 
I am about to start a new chapter in my life and I must keep myself sane by releasing all the future stress in my future environment. 

Keep me in your prayers, dearest!

Assalamualaikum!

Are you ready?

I think one of the things friends have asked me a lot about these past few months is my relationship status. And my answer is always.. "wala eh." I don't actually mind, most of the time. I think being single is very liberating and well, sets me apart from a lot of adults my age. Honestly, though, I don't think I am ready to be un-single. To be associated with someone else. To be in a relationship.

"Bakit di ka pa ready?" 

One close guy friend of mine just asked me earlier. I told him because I have a lot of things planned for myself and in all those plans, being in a harmonious marriage, sits last. I want to give back to my parents. I have dreams for them. At this point in time, I also feel like neither my family nor myself are ready for me to settle down.

All that said, maybe this is His way of telling me that I have to wait for His plans for me. Maybe I am not ready because I really shouldn't be anything but single now. I trust Him. Marriage is a blessing from Him and so, I wait.

Assalamualaikum =)