Tuesday, December 16, 2014

A life lost is one future gone

I regram-ed this early today. My heart is shattered in pieces. I think about their young, innocent faces going through shock and fear while it happened. I think about their weeping families and friends who now mourn for lives lost, hugs and kisses that will never come, laughter and smiles that will never be the same. I think about how the world has gone heartless and faith-less. I think about my family--my sister, my brother, my little cousins who love school and treat it as their second home. I think about all the countless lives taken away. I think about all the wrong in the world, but will remain full in faith and hope that goodness will always prevail.

May Jannatul Firdaus be granted to the lives taken on the #peshawarattack in Pakistan. 
My thoughts and my prayers are with all the families and loved ones left behind. Be strong. Keep the faith. Allah SWT is with us, is the Almighty, is the Most Knowing, is the Best of Planners.


Thursday, October 2, 2014

Random chatter

I was set for the day. Confident I wouldn't be doing office work because I was scheduled to work in another unit. But there were only 2 patients in that ward so I was called back to help with office work. I totally underestimated quality control people. I have only done it for 2 days and here I am, all stressed out. Imagine having it as a full-time job.. @@ Well, honestly, I am not planning to be a bedside nurse forever. I am considering shifting to a career still medically inclined but not as bedside anymore. I was actually thinking of shifting to quality work or maybe clinical instructor.. but, the 2 days I just had, left me mentally drained. I guess it was an untimely exposure to the workload since it's the end of 3rd quarter and reports/survey are being finalized.

Still, today was an odd day.

I saw different sides of our director, nurse managers and the supervisors.

What was really odd?

I had lunch with the big bosses.

Glad I didn't choke.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Go away unnecessary fats

In my weight loss journey, the humps and bumps are inevitable. Though I noticed that my setbacks are greater than my success. I came to Saudi Arabia at 54 kg, 3 months later, I gained 3 kilos and then some. After a couple of months, I got to 63 kg. Something I am not proud of. That day was my wakeup call. I started exercising, eating less, eating better. And then, I lose 2 kgs. 61 kg now and I can't seem to lose anymore. It's 60 kg, then 61, then 59 then bounce back to 51. It's already a struglle to begin with, what now with all these figures?

Now, I am at 61 kg. To get to normal BMI, I need to lose 7 kgs.

I know how to do it, I just need a motivation..

And I realized I am going home a month from now..


I will make ^^^^^^^^ my mantra!

Reminder to myself:

Fats, you will die.

(Photo from Tumblr)

Friday, August 22, 2014


Guess who has been watching Ed Sheeran for like 4 hours straight now?? Guilty. 
I didn't understand why my sister is such a huge fan until recently, when I started to really listen to him. 
He is magic. 

This day, I am officially a Sheerio.

Monday, April 21, 2014


Everyone gets to have their dumbest moment ever and I just had mine yesterday. That was just completely embarassing and I don't know how to move forward. I have been thinking about it every waking second of my life. I couldn't find strength to forgive myself for what happened yesterday. Seriously, guys, I couldn't even say it here. That was how uncomfortable and mortifying yesterday's dumbest event was. O____O I can't even..

You know that feeling of wanting to just get lost for a while? Just eveaporate?


Sunday, April 6, 2014

Out of It

I am embarrassed to be caught looking, no, the right word is staring. There, I said it. But it feels worse now that it's out there. @@ Yesterday's shift felt tense, weird and unorganized. I am glad I have this day off. Give me a chance to clear myself and hopefully learn to lower my gaze.

Ya Rabb, forgive me.

Saturday, March 29, 2014

How I Met Your Mother Farewell

A moment of silence please for my favorite show of all time T___T 


Barney, Ted, Robin, Marshall and Lily.. the entire MacLaren's gang will be airing it's final episode tonight and I can't stop feeling sad.

I guess all good things really come to an end..

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Monday, March 10, 2014


Assalamualaikum :)

Currently on day 5 of doing this challenge. And all I can say is that it's actually helping me to find my little bubble of happiness every single day in spite of all the new things happening around me. Being a nurse, it can get really stressful at work (my admission yesterday was so chaotic) but the challenge has given me a reason to be more optimistic.

Try it, guys! It does make that smile turn into a frown